Drug Dreams

HEROIN Lou Reed

I dont know just where Im going

But Im goin to try for the kingdom if I can

cause it makes me feel like Im a man

When I put a spike into my vein

Then I tell you things arent quite the same

Heroin, be the death of me

Heroin, its my wife and its my life

Because a mainer to my vein

Leads to a center in my head

And then Im better off than dead

When the smack begins to flow

Then I really dont care anymore

About all the jim-jims in this town

And everybody putting everybody else down

And all of the politicians makin crazy sounds

All the dead bodies piled up in mounds, yeah

Wow, that heroin is in my blood

And the blood is in my head

Yeah, the gods good as dead

Ooohhh, God that Im not aware

I just dont care

And I guess I just dont know

And I guess I just dont know

I had a heroin dream last night. It was so vivid. Usually my heroin dreams consist of me running around San Francisco trying to find the dope (the chase) and I never actually get the drug into my veins. In last night's dream, I actually got the dope into the syringe and into my veins and I even saw the blood in the syringe. I actually thought about the dope getting coagulated with the blood, and I was afraid I'd stop up the syringe. I remember thinking, 'well there goes 9 fucking years'.

And then the alarm went off at 5:40am and I was SO relieved.

Got to Bally's at 6am and swam 80 laps (2000y). Fast. It felt good. The pool wasn't too disgusting either.

After a shower, I came home and walked both dogs for 30 minutes around the golfcourse by my house. Ari's not limping so short leash walks have been the norm for the last couple days.

Drank a Muscle Milk when I got home and fed the dogs.

Then I lifted weights in my bedroom for a half hour. Shoulders, triceps, biceps, light weight, heavy reps.

Left for work at 9:40am , working a 12 hour shift.

God I am so glad that fucking dream wasn't real. Sucks to be me sometimes.